If I'm brave enough to write it, why are people too scared to comment?

Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.
-Henry David Thoreau


Sometimes out here I can really lose myself. In the storm of the "here and now" I find myself living moment to moment... and making choices as if I only live moment to moment, like my choice in this moment will not affect the next.

I hope I have left enough bread crumbs behind so that I can find my way home.

Sometimes I think about my goals and plans and swell up inside with excitement... and then I remember home and everything fades and starts to fall around me like a field of fireflies dying mid-flight, one by one.

Sometimes I think of home and the warmth and love radiate around me...and then I think of my plans and goals and fear freezes my heart. I'm going to have to go "out there" away from what is safe and known.

So I have been out here in Bosnia for the better part of a month. In my imagination I was going to blog everyday with updates. Right, so that didn't happen.

I read other blogs just to know that life is still going on at there: a 16 year-old in Japan worried about school, a 20 year-old Swedish hiker whose blogs I can barely guess the meanings of, a couple from Connecticut excited that they are pregnant with their first baby.

And I didn't comment any of them...

Why?

When I read other blogs I feel like a voyeur. I assume they didn't mean to have me for an audience and so I leave no footprints behind (unless I get curious about them and end up putting another tick in the number of profile views).

Even though I thought it was the coolest thing when Bart commented my first post, I find myself to distant from most bloggers - either because of age, religion, age, interests, age, place in life, etc. Does a 25 year old in Thailand really want to hear from me?

Actually probably yes.

I see that most blogs do not have much more than a handful of comments. 213 people have viewed my profile (ok, probably 13 and one dude 200 times; please stop, I know who you are!), but only 4 people have ever made a comment.

So if you are out there, and you read this, just say "hi". That's great...it really doesn't need to be more than that.